Nobody Wants to Die with Ana (acrostic)

Atrophied heart. 

NG tubing. 

Osteoporosis. 

Racing heart, fifth day fasting. 

Exercise purging. 

X-Rays and brittle bones, 15 years old. 

Inside me, lives a disease,

And I am trying to starve it out of me. 

Nothing ever seems little enough,

Everything is too much. 

Racing heart, sixth day fasting. 

Vicious cycles of never ending misery,

Over-exercise, just to eat it all back again. 

Still starving, I don't know why anymore. 

And someday, I will make it out alive.